just want you to know

"I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go. Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end. I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me. But still I have to say I would do it all again. Just want you to know that since I lost you, I lost myself. No I can't fake it, there's no one else."

- BackstreetBoys, Just Want You to Know.
Album: Never Gone

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The day when reality smacked me hard on the face and all hopes lost and the willingness to carry on dies. I admitted defeat, a defeat before the long battle started. It was a mistake that I took the blame for.

“Was I being too ambitious?”

“Was I cheating myself all this while?”

The possibility so slim but I held on.

“Or was there no possibility at all?”

I once believed that nothing is impossible and I still believe in it now. Nothing can heal this wound of mine so deep. You left a deep impression on me. Maybe time will tell. Never do I lose faith in God and I pray hard that He’ll show me the Way. May He re-unite us back because my love for you is so true.

I just want to say, “I still love you the same and I feel you in my heart.”

Yours truly,
Zainul.

Written at: Blk 775 Pasir Ris St 71
Date: 11/10/06
Time: 0010 hours